Blog 35: Babies Are A Lot Of Work!

Surprise, surprise. =P

Kayleigh Elizabeth Jordan
Born February 23rd 2011
20.5 Inches 8 Pounds 12.4 Ounces

So... To recap real quick. I ended up being a week late and went to the hospital to be induced on the 21st of February. They didn't start me out with oxytocin (usual inducing drug) though. They instead started giving me this stuff (can't remember the name for the life of me) that would prepare my body more for labor and hopefully make me start labor naturally. Well... it didn't. So early on the 23rd they gave me the oxytocin and broke my water a couple hours after that and I finally went into real hard-core labor. At about 3 1/2 centimeters dilated I wimped out and got an epidural. -_-' Boy, was I grateful for it though and I will always recommend it if anyone should ask. Anywho... After it was all set up and I was comfortable I was at 4 centimeters. Then I fell asleep. ^_^ 2 hours later I woke up feeling really un-comfortable again. My nurse was out on lunch, but I did let the nurse taking over for her know. She said it wasn't a problem and that she would call the anesthesiologist back in to give me a boost of pain meds. She should have checked me beforehand for how dilated I was though, but she wouldn't for some reason. Then my nurse came back from lunch and wanted to check how far along I was. Right before she did though Mom (who was there with me through all of this) jokingly said, "Watch, she's going to check you and you'll be 10 centimeters dilated." I'm paraphrasing of course. Anyway, we laughed and the nurse checked me... 10 centimeters... it was time to push. =/ So the nurse got me ready, but my doctor on call was across town. It wasn't a big deal though because she was supposedly 30 or less minutes away and I was probably going to be pushing for at the very least an hour before crowning. So anyway... The nurse got me ready. Right before I started though Mom was trying to make me less stressed out and joked saying, "It will be ok. Watch, you'll push once and she'll probably already start crowning." We laughed, then the nurse told me to start pushing.... One contraction and she was crowning... 0_o I told Mom to shut up after that. Lol. So then I had to wait for the doctor to get there to finish pushing... which wasn't fun. The doctor was about 20 minutes out then but she hit traffic... Before we knew it it had been almost an hour and she still wasn't there... The nurse was about to call in the emergency doctor to do the delivery, because at that point my patience was real thin. Then the doctor showed up. Within a couple more minutes I was ready to push again... Two more contractions and out came baby! By the way... creepy as heck! Lol. Everyone was really surprised though... as was I. Happily though. ^^ Mom jokes that she's mad because I didn't pay my dues because I had such an easy delivery... though sometimes I think she's serious... Lol. I did have it incredibly easy though... and for some reason I feel really bad for it. Like I somehow betrayed all the woman in the world or something... -_-' I don't know... it's hard to explain. All I can say though is that God was smiling upon me that day. So my cone headed (at the time) little girl was born safely and we went home two days later.
Kayleigh is the most precious thing ever!!! I love her to bits! ^^ She was kind of a blob there for awhile though... Lol. She's going to be 2 months Wednesday and she's now baby talking and smiling, playing, and all around starting to interact with the outside world. Soon she'll be sitting up by herself and then crawling... It's kind of scary how quickly she's growing... but it's also exciting! =] I could go on and on about what she does and how much I love her... but I'll be merciful for now to whoever reads this. Haha... What can I say? I'm one of those dotting show-offy Moms. XP
Speaking of which though... I'm not sure how much more I can write because baby's been really fussy today and she'll probably wake up soon... She has tummy troubles. =[ Real quick though there is something I want to touch bases with...
*WARNING: RANTING AHEAD*
So yeah... If you don't want to hear drama I would stop reading and call it good for the day.
So William *sigh* I swear this will be the last time I bring him up like this for a really long time... if ever. So I wasn't going to tell him that I was going into labor... but Mom said on the way down that I should. I wasn't sure of her reasoning's behind it, but I took my mom's advice and talked to him before going into the hospital. I was just going to do it over e-mail, but he insisted I call him because he had something important to say. So I called him using *67 since I didn't want him having my number. He was out at a bar or restaurant or something when I called with friends... Out late on a school night... smart... anywho. All he said to me was good luck. Good luck... oh... and giving me gripe because I wasn't going to give her his last name. He couldn't even say he loved her or anything... It really ticked me off... and that whole night I was becoming more and more angry as I thought about it. Then I just stopped thinking about it later the next day. I was done. I was over him. As I was told, I missed the memory. I missed having someone supposedly there. I sure as heck at that point didn't miss him. I am so thankful that Mom advised me to talk to him before I went into the hospital. Because I was going in with confused lingering feelings and it would have been really bad to go through labor with those... especially since a guy like that doesn't deserve it. I was just able to focus on the fact that my baby girl was coming which was really nice.
I get e-mails from him occasionally... at first they were about how Kayleigh was... but then he started talking about himself and his issues... Why? I have no clue... He still hasn't done anything for her nor has he even said anything to show he truly cares... so I'm not sure why he bothers period. I haven't heard from him in awhile though which I'm glad about. Maybe he'll finally do what he wants and stop putting up an act and leave us alone... At least that's what I believe he's doing. He's just feeling guilty sometimes about being a big jerk. That's all.
I still think about when we were together from time to time... but things are definitely better. I'm a little lonely, but I'll live. =P Hopefully my thoughts of him will continue to lessen and soon stop completely. I'm moving on with my life with high hopes. And I have no doubt in my mind that this was the right choice for Kayleigh. This is the right choice for me too, but I was more concerned for her when deciding things. So yeah... Life goes on. End of drama rant.
Well... it's 12am and Kayleigh is still happily asleep. So I'm going to take this oppotunity to get some myself.
Chibisukie signing out.