Blog 21: Wow........

Wow....

That's all I have to say for the past month and a half. It was like I was climbing up hill slowly like going up a roller coaster without even realizing it and then just suddenly dropping to rock bottom.

Ok.... So the last week of January I don't have to much of an excuse... I was feeling lazy and didn't want to write. First week of February I went into the emergency room. After many tests and surgery for the removal of one of my lympnodes in my neck for a biopsy I was diagnosed with Thyroid Cancer. After that.... dealing with doctor appointments and stuff until March 18th when I went into surgery again to get the rest of my infected lymphnodes and thyroid removed. Then after a successful surgery guess what? Yep... My vocal cords stopped working! T-T So then I was on a breathing tube for 5 days until they decided that they could button (literally) one of my cords open so I could breathe again. So they did that and I don't have to breathe threw a tube anymore. So then I was in the hospital for 4 days after that cause they wanted to monitor my breathing and see if I COULD ACTUALLY swallow or not. I can in a weird funky way now swallow and I'm breathing fine so I just got home today... -_-' Life sucks at the moment just in case you couldn't tell. What bothered me the most about this whole thing though was actually the fact that it didn't bother me more.... I know... I'm strange... but i wasn't to freaked about it during then. of course I was drugged up and I don't really remember what happened... Yay for drugs btw!!!! =D But ya.... Still... now it bothers me a bit and it's almost unbelievable that I went through something hellish like that... but at the same time it's not going to shake me. It happened and I lived through it. No point of breaking down about it now. =] but ya... Other then illness... school has gone down the drain. I can't do play cause my vocal cords are still paralyzed and I can't really talk. I'm tired and hurt. I have 3 new really cool battle scars and a plastic button (I wasn't joking about the button...) in my neck. AND I still have the loving support of all my friends and family. I'm also still going out with Will and he's been with me every step of the way =] He's pretty much the bestest bf a gf could ask for... I don't know what I did to deserve a guy like him, but THANK YOU GOD!!!!! I even got to meet him in person =] Yes... he is what he was online and SOOO MUCH MORE!!!! <3 <3 <3 I love him to death.... ANYWHO! yeah... That the shortest/weirdest version I have of the past month and a half. Now I'm just sitting here alone at home, bored. I'm going to start writing here again though as much as I can. I like to blog... I just haven't had any inspiration as of late... but now I do again so I'm going with it! =D Well... It's late... So I'm going to bed now. Night! ChibiSukie signing out!