Blog 24: So The Writing Continues

Ello

Abi said I should write, so hear I am! Also... for the past month I've been thinking about it and frankly, I miss writing on here.
So life goes on as usual... in the good/bad kind of way. I'm happy with my life as a whole, but every time I'm home or around my family I feel cloistered. Trapped. Like there's nothing I can do or anywhere I can go. It's very strange. I love my family (sometimes =P), but I feel I'm becoming more and more distant. Like I'm preferring a life away from them. Not like in a "I hate my parents of course I prefer a life without them" type of thing. More like "I want to go out into the world and make my own life and find my own way." type thing. I'm not really sure what any of that means though.
Anyway, on to a more happy topic. I'm in a fairly good mood and I would like to stay that way. =] I was looking through an old blog on here earlier, it was Blog 17 Part 1, and I read through the dream I had had the night before. I remember it clearly now funny enough and since it's been so long I see certain things that I didn't notice before. First off... when he punches the wall... total Kyo* moment. Lol. Next, I say that he, "stared into my eyes with his own clear blue eyes." The guy I was sorta kind of dreaming about and who I thought for sure it was didn't have blue eyes. He had brown. So I really was just wanting to be with a guy period... that's sad... Also, I think I was either writing and/or reading to many love stories. That's what inspired this dream. I have to admit though... I didn't really remember the dream in detail until after I read it again so it was kind of like reading a story I had only heard vaguely about... The story did keep me on my toes. It was fascinating sort of. Now I could have wrote the story of that dream WAY better, but the story of the dream itself should be made into a classic. ;P Ha! Finally, funny/scary thing about it. Some of those romantic moments I had in the dream has actually happened with Will and I. I mean... they weren't exact, but they were pretty close. What really struck me the most was the first kiss scene... It didn't happen like that of course. We were in a movie theater not by a church =P And my Dad didn't see... that's for certain... but the feeling of being lost. Being worried yet wanting it so much. Just going with it in a fluid motion like I'd done it so many times before. Oh... and the fireworks. I may sound ridiculous and corny for saying this... but there are definitely fireworks with that first kiss. So yeah... haha... has there ever been an awkward moment in a blog? Cause suddenly I'm feeling it. I am so weird. X]
I don't really have anything else insightful to say (if what I talked about in this blog was insightful... which I doubt) So I'm going to get going. Well... goodnight.
ChibiSukie signing out!


*Character from the Manga/Anime Fruits Basket.