Blog 29: Gibber Gabber

Hello ~

So... I'm doing better than I was last week... obviously. I found my answer about William... we're staying together. I'm not sure if we'll last... =[ but I'm going to try my best to get over things and become strong again so long as he does his. If our best works out... we'll stay together. If not... I guess were not meant for each other. I also realized this is my life. I can continue or back away from anything I start. I'm not trapped unless I choose to be. Now... I can look like a heartless jerk in certain situations if I choose to back out though... especially when I said I wouldn't and I do for no reason... but I'm not like that and wouldn't do it... so I think I'll be okie dokie. =]
I'm hoping to get a cell phone today (since my previous phone got shut off by mistake by my mother...) It's only been a little over a month without one. T-T It wouldn't be so bad, but after my phone gave out I realized none of our house phones work... So basically I've been stuck without a phone period for that long. Last week I got my Mom's old "pay as you go" phone, which at first I thought was cool. They charge you 25 cents per minute and 20 cents per text though!!! You know how quickly that adds up if you don't pay attention?!?!? -_-' It's a total rip off. I shouldn't be without a phone for this long to begin with though... My mom ordered the phone three times from the company and they never sent it! Finally she just canceled it and we're going to a store to buy one. I can't believe them though. They have awful service and they are beginning to frustrate me beyond belief.
SCREW YOU AT&T!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
*sigh* Ok... I feel better now. Hahaha.... XD Whenever I move out though or my parents decide to switch phone companies I want Verizon. The whole "can't receive texts or calls while surfing the web" thing does suck.... but at this point... it's worth the better service. Plus I don't usually get online with my phone anyway... unless I need to.
So yeah... other than that life is a bit boring right now. It's summer!!! And I'm no longer a high school student!!! =D but other than that nothing really. I wanted to make this summer the best out of all of them. To get together with all of my friends and have fun, spend lots of time with Will since this is our last summer together until he leaves for basic, go to the beach A LOT, go to Marine World, get my drivers permit, and generally have the time of my life. So far though... it's been drama filled and me sitting on my butt doing nothing. I have gone to the beach with friends =] but I also want to go there during the day too... no matter how fun it is to try and find drift wood to burn in the middle of the night and stubbing your toes on it cause you can't see X]I've really started to realize since last year that life moves by fast. Opportunities and good times fly by like shooting stars. I want to look back on my life 20... 30 years from now and not regret missing out on anything. I want to have fun and happy memories. Things that way out all the crap of life ten fold. I want to smile and laugh when I tell my great-grandchildren about my "crazy youth". XD I think I'm starting to talk and think like an old person... lol. It's just I know life's not all fun and games and times like these won't happen all the time. So when I can... I'm going to take complete advantage of them. I'm going to live life to the fullest!!!... not stupidly... yeah. Summer's just started though... so I'm not to worried about breaking my streak of nothingness X] Either way I'm sure this summer will be amazing.
Well... enough gibber gabber from little old me. XP I'm going to find me a snackers. ^^
<3
ChibiSukie signing out!