Blog 2: Christmas Spiritless

Hi
Today wasn't one of the best days I've had. I had to get up early to go last minute Christmas shopping with Mom, which was fun, but everything else started to go down hill from there. Everyone is in a pissed off mood right now, especially Joseph(my brother) and my Grandma. Just in case you didn't know, my grandparent's live with my family. So Joseph's really angry about something again and I have no idea what about. He's been a total jerk to me and everyone else all day. I usually don't stand for someone yelling at me for no reason and/or taking there frustration's out on me, but I don't really care anymore... He has these mood swings that you can't predict and he takes out whatevers wrong on everyone around him. Just like a girls mood swings a bit. Lol. I'm not calling him a girl with that statement, I'm just saying.... I don't know about him.... but moving on... Grandma. She's all freaked out, because she wants everything perfect for tomorrow. She's one of those people that are not only a perfectionist, but also cares what I think is way to much about there social standing. My Aunt Betsy, 2nd cousin Jayda, cousin Josh, and his fiance (don't remember her name) are coming over tomorrow. So my Grandma wants to do all this baking, cleaning, reorganizing, and a whole bunch of other stuff, but she can't do it by herself and she doesn't want to admit it. I mean were not leaving her to do all the house work, we've done quite a bit. It's just she expects us to help her immediately every time we see her. She thinks that she doesn't have to ask for our help when she needs it. I don't know what she's thinking, but the point is that she shouldn't get angry at us because we didn't know that she needed help. My Mom got fed up with it when my Grandma started going on about how she must do everything and no one will ever help her, so she started yelling at Grandma. Later on when I actually saw Grandma at work I saw her struggling so I walked over to her and asked if she needed help. She then said to me that "If it's unwilling help then no." I was ticked off about this, but I instead tried to be calm and basically told her that there was no reason to get angry at me, because I didn't do anything, and that I willingly wanted to help. Then I talked to her about our thoughts of the situation. I think it helped her calm down a bit... but I don't know. How ever much she has weird logic and gets angry at us for not understanding it, I still love her. I love all my family, no matter what they say or do to me. But yeah... that's enough bitching about my family members for awhile I think. I hope anyways.... One more thing I wanted to talk about was Christmas. Man... it really snuck up on me this year. Usually by now, especially the day before, I'm really into the Christmas Spirit of things. This year though I don't really have any. I don't know what it is. Even after we got the decorations up and everything else I still have none. Maybe it's because of everything that's been going on or that my whole family is at each others throats every five seconds, but I guess I just have to deal with it. It really sucks though... Well I just hope I can enjoy tomorrow and at least be in Christmas Spirits by then. I need to get up really early tomorrow to get work done for the coming family members. So until tomorrow, ChibiSukie singing out!