Blog 12: TICKED OFF!!

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I totally forgot to blog until just now! T-T Better late then never I guess. So yesterday was a lot of fun at Kathy's. We didn't go to the mall but we just hung out at her house and had fun watching movies and talking. Then I got to do her hair for the night. I am rather proud of the job I did. She looked REALLY CUTE!!! :) So I worked the event for Explorers, which was hell, while Kathy did what cheer leaders do best. Her squad did a good job I think. There were A LOT of Explorers there! It was fun. The only problem I had was I started feeling super claustrophobic (OMG! I spelled that right on my first try!)cause there were so many people, it was a lot of really hard work, and my partner was an eleven-year-old little tyrant. However cute she is and acted towards everyone, inside that little girl there is a small ball of evil beginning to form. She was a lot of work to deal with... What I find sad about it though is that she reminded me a lot of what I was like when I was her age. Green eyes, blond hair, freckles, very active, bossy to the bones, super excited by the littlest things, and had a soft spot for really old people. Also things had to be done perfectly or else!... Yeah... she was lots of fun to deal with. So after the event we went grocery shopping to by sweets :D then I spent the night at Kathy's eating, watching movies, and talking. Then I got up this morning, went to church, came home, and have pretty much been here ever sense. I did go on a walk and make a quick trip to the grocery store with my Mom. Speaking of my Mom.... and my brother.... there really starting to get on my freaking nerves. So I'm like 5'6'' height wise. Which I think is pretty good, above average, but not too tall. Well even though that's my height I'm still the shortest one in my family. Which kind of peeves me in the oddest way sometimes, but I don't really care. Well Mom and Joseph WON'T LET IT GO!!!!!!!!!! They are constantly making fun of me! They also make fun of my eating habits, which bothers me greatly. I'm a huge eater. Especially when I'm sad, depressed, or bored. And I'm a bit over weight because of it. I'm not fat or anything, I just kind of have a bit of a pooch. Either way I don't like it and I've been trying to eat less. It's been really hard and I've been kind of failing because of all the crap that my house is well stocked in. It tempts me so... I need help. I keep trying to do this on my own, but it's not working. I'm just gaining more weight. My Mom said she would help me, but instead look at what she does?! She makes fun of me! I need encouragement, not insults and jokes. So thanks Mom. Really appreciate it. Also what bugs me is that she keeps stealing my cloths and wearing them without my permission!! I have very few cloths at the moment and ever item counts. It doesn't matter to Mom though. What ever is warmest, most convenient, and what she wants to wear she wears. Then when I say she's wearing my cloths she's like "Oh really? I had no idea!" Most of the time sarcastically. Then when I tell her to stop or to please stop wearing them or give them back she says, "I won't get them dirty or ruin them. Don't worry! They probably don't fit you anyways right?" Again the whole insulting me about the weight thing.... Well screw her too then! She knows that I'm concerned about my weight, but instead of being a kind Mother who would help me and hit me up side the head if I'm going to eat something I shouldn't shes like the evil older sister who tortures her little sister with reckless abandon without caring how they feel. Mom doesn't care about me though. She doesn't give a damn. She's nice, thin, and in shape. Why should she care about the lump who locks herself in her bedroom being by herself all day? mom tries to say she's a bit gothic or something, which she could be, but I mostly think she's just a big prep. DAMN IT!!!!! SCREW IT ALL!!!!!! I DON"T GIVE A SHIT ANYMORE!!! I'm not going to talk about it anymore. It just enrages me! and she says I'm being harsh when I walk away from her fumed and won't talk to her because I'm so effing ticked by "who knows what". Well if you had a conscience in your head and actually annualized what you said, MOM, you would understand that your lucky that I don't cuse you out or hit you up side your head for saying such nasty things to me. ANYWAYS!!! Seriously moving on.......Oh! I just took this accurate personality quiz and it tells me that I'm an "Emotional Goth Rocker"....?????? I obviously have issues. Lol. oh welly.... Also, I got my phone bill from last month... Lets just say it ain't pretty and I'm going to have to babysit a couple of times before I can pay it off. I'm not going to be texting anymore.... So ya.... I'm really tired. I'm going to try and get some sleep. ChibiSukie signing out!!